अकेलापन

अकेलापन 

आज कल याद कुछ और रहता नहीं, एक बस आपकी याद आने के बाद। 

याद आने से पहले चले आइये, और फिर जाइये जान जाने के बाद। 

बहुत पहले किसी हिंदी फिल्म में सुना था ये गाना, जो की आज कल खुद मेरी जुबान पे चढ़ा हुआ है. शायद यही हाल होता है अगर कोई प्रिय आपसे ज्यादा दिन तक दूर रहे।  दिन अचानक  ही कितने बड़े लगने लगते है, और रात अकेली और डरावनी। समय तो जैसे पहाड़ की माफ़िक फ़ैल के आगे खड़ा हो जाता है, जिसके आर पार कुछ और दिखाई ही नहीं देता।  

इस दिल की स्थिति कोई और समझ ही नहीं सकता,  जब तक ऐसा कुछ उसके खुद के साथ घटित न हुआ हो। जीवन भर व्यक्ति प्यार की तलाश में ही भटकता रहता है। और जब ये ही प्यार झोली भर के आप के पास हो पर आपके समीप/निकट ना हो तो आप भटक भी नहीं सकते और अपने प्यार को पा भी नहीं सकते, बहुत ही विकट परिस्थिति हो जाती है कभी कभी। 

फ़ोन भी क्या कमाल का आविष्कार है, पल भर ही सही पर मीलों की दूरिया छड़ भर के लिए लुप्त हो जाती है। और आजकल तो कई ऐसे माध्यम है दूरिया मिटाने के, फेसबुक/व्हाट्स-एप/वी-चैट/३ जी चैट जो तुरंत आपको आपके प्यार से कनेक्ट कर देते है। 

पर क्या ये छड़ भर के माध्यम से सच में दूरिया घट जाती है? क्या याद आने का सिलसिला थम जाता है? क्या मन को वास्तव में संतोष की प्राप्ति हो जाती है? दिल जोर जोर धड़कना बंद कर देता है?

नहीं …………… कभी नहीं। 

The Illusion

Once there was a king who had presented his daughter, the princess, with a beautiful diamond necklace. The necklace was stolen and his people in the kingdom searched everywhere but could not find it. Some said a bird might have stolen it. The king then asked them all to search for it and put a reward for $50,000 for anyone who found it.

One day a clerk was walking home along a river next to an industrial area. This river was completely polluted, filthy and smelly. As he was walking, the clerk saw a shimmering in the river and when he looked, he saw the diamond necklace. He decided to try and catch it so that he could get the $50,000 reward. He put his hand in the filthy, dirty river and grabbed at the necklace, but somehow missed it and didn't catch it. He took his hand out and looked again and the necklace was still there. He tried again, this time he walked in the river and dirtied his pants in the filthy river and put his whole arm in to catch the necklace. But strangely, he still missed the necklace! He came out and started walking away, feeling depressed.

Then again he saw the necklace, right there. This time he was determined to get it, no matter what. He decided to plunge into the river, although it was a disgusting thing to do as the river was polluted, and his whole body would become filthy.

He plunged in, and searched everywhere for the necklace and yet he failed. This time he was really bewildered and came out feeling very depressed that he could not get the necklace that would get him $50,000.

Just then a saint who was walking by, saw him, and asked him what the matter was. The clerk didn't want to share the secret with the saint, thinking the saint might take the necklace for himself, so he refused to tell the saint anything. But the saint could see this man was troubled and being compassionate, again asked the clerk to tell him the problem and promised that he would not tell anyone about it. The clerk mustered some courage and decided to put some faith in the saint. He told the saint about the necklace and how he tried and tried to catch it, but kept failing. The saint then told him that perhaps he should try looking upward, toward the branches of the tree, instead of in the filthy river. The clerk looked up and true enough, the necklace was dangling on the branch of a tree. He had been trying to capture a mere reflection of the real necklace all this time.

Moral: Material happiness is a mere reflection of d true happiness in d spiritual world.

Ideas.....That comes sometimes..!!!!

Nothing is perfect. Life is messy. Relationships are complex. Outcomes are uncertain. People are irrational.

I want to be very close to someone I respect and admire and have somebody who feels the same way about me.

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

We learn something from everyone who passes through our lives. Some lessons are painful, some are painless. But, all are priceless.

The only thing that stands between you and your dream is the will to try and the belief that it is actually possible.

Ek Bhangedi ki Aatmkatha (17/03/2014 23:07PM)

Aaj to bawal ho gaya. Bhang ka nasha kya hota hai aaj pata chala, dimaag ki sari nase phatane lagi thi, itna tez chal raha tha dimag ki kah nahi sakate, koi lagam nahi, koi sar pair nahi. Lag raha tha jindgi yahi khatam ho jayegi,  abhi bhi apane kiye pe hansi aa rahi hai, ye nahi samajh pa raha hoon ki sahi me soch ke hans raha hoon ya Bhang ka nasha abhi bhi hai. Akansha(My Wife) bhi grasit hai bachche(Babies) ko kaise doodh pilate hai sikha rahi thi muhje, abhi Rahul(My Younger Brother) aaya tha dekhane ki sab thik hai na. 

Sabko tension ho gai hai, Rishi(My 2nd Younger Brother) bhi khumari(Hang Over) me hai, Anamika(Rishi's Wife) bhi past(too in same state as Rishi) hai but mujhe sabse thik wahi lag rahi hai hum sab me ki usi ko nahi chadi hai nahi to baki sab nashe me hai, Mudit(My 3rd Younger Brother) alag apani duniya me mast hai, sare pine walo ka bura haal hai. 

Maine to khoob kohram machaya. Hansa, roya, pareshan hua aur kiya. Ab ye hamesha yaad rahega aur jab, jab hansi aayegi lagega ki abhi bhi nasha barkarar hai. Kab puri tarike se normal feel karunga pata nahi, khana bhi khoob khaya hai aaj aur vomit bhi khoob ki hai, bahut chah kar bhi khud pe control nahi ho raha tha. Drawing room ka natak, bathroom me natak, bahar se ghar me aana, nahate samay rona, apane aap ko pitna, nal ka dur chale jana, kejariwal ki maya, ghar me chor na aa ajye ki chinta, ivy ki chinta, family ka tension, ivy ka admission,  phir bina nahye sab ka so jana. Gazab din bita aj ka, abhi bhi chadi hai lagata hai, rukane ka man nahi kar raha, lag raha hai ki likhata hi jau, sab kuch likha dalu kal pata nahi kuch yaad rahega ki nahi. Bekar me kal Sabko leave leni pagedi.

Kitana bola aaj main, baap re, Rishi bechara kaise bardast kiya. 

Ab rishi bhi nashe me hai, par chalo sab so jayenge to thik ho jayenge. Main akela jag raha hoon, sab so gaye. 

Lag raha hai ki main thik hoon par kuch to locha hai, so jao amit shrivastava, so ke hi thik hoga. Kya yaar ab to kabhi bhool se bhi haath nahi kagagunga, dekho phir hansi aa rahi hai. Par subah jitani tension nahi hai. Sab kuch control me hai. Achcha hua tatti peshab(Loose Mothion n all) nahi hua nahi to phajihat ho jati, khali vomit me hi baat nibat gai. 

Rishi bechare ko apane dost ko gate se hi lautana pada hum logo ke chalate. Sab pagalaye jo the us samay. Badi tez chadi mujhe, jiska viswas main nahi kar pa raha tha. Chah kar bhi nahi kar pa raha tha, main itana strong hoon ye mujhe kaise ho sakta hai, but hua to mujhe hi tha. Chehre(Face) ki sari nase(Muscles) phatne lagi thi. Rishi se Maine bola ki 32 manspeshiyo ka aaj pata chal gaya. 

Ivy ne kaise control kiya hoga, ma(Mom) baap(Dad) dono pagla gaye the. Uska chehra bhi yaad aa raha hai, bechari na ro paa rahi thi na hans, use kuch samajh hi nahi aa raha tha. Dimag dekho, maine rishi se ye bhi kaha bahar mat nikalana kahi main kud na jau. Bachcho ko bhi apane se dur kar raha tha. Ab to kuch aur bacha nahi likhane ko sayad, rishi ne video banai hai, par bahut kam der, chalo utna hi kaphi hai, yaad karne k liye. 

Ok now stop,  time to sleep

Bye n gud night, new morning with new every one.

Note - Really if i don't have brother's like Rishi, Mudit and Anamika, it will be very tough for us to recover and back to senses, even still i m unable to think about that situation without them n their care. A BIG BIG Thanks is also a very small returns to them for their care. Now somewhere i feel myself lucky.

Happy Holi

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The Illusion

The Illusion

Once there was a king who had presented his daughter, the princess, with a beautiful diamond necklace. The necklace was stolen and his people in the kingdom searched everywhere but could not find it. Some said a bird might have stolen it. The king then asked them all to search for it and put a reward for $50,000 for anyone who found it.

One day a clerk was walking home along a river next to an industrial area. This river was completely polluted, filthy and smelly. As he was walking, the clerk saw a shimmering in the river and when he looked, he saw the diamond necklace. He decided to try and catch it so that he could get the $50,000 reward. He put his hand in the filthy, dirty river and grabbed at the necklace, but somehow missed it and didn't catch it. He took his hand out and looked again and the necklace was still there. He tried again, this time he walked in the river and dirtied his pants in the filthy river and put his whole arm in to catch the necklace. But strangely, he still missed the necklace! He came out and started walking away, feeling depressed.

Then again he saw the necklace, right there. This time he was determined to get it, no matter what. He decided to plunge into the river, although it was a disgusting thing to do as the river was polluted, and his whole body would become filthy.

He plunged in, and searched everywhere for the necklace and yet he failed. This time he was really bewildered and came out feeling very depressed that he could not get the necklace that would get him $50,000.

Just then a saint who was walking by, saw him, and asked him what the matter was. The clerk didn't want to share the secret with the saint, thinking the saint might take the necklace for himself, so he refused to tell the saint anything. But the saint could see this man was troubled and being compassionate, again asked the clerk to tell him the problem and promised that he would not tell anyone about it. The clerk mustered some courage and decided to put some faith in the saint. He told the saint about the necklace and how he tried and tried to catch it, but kept failing. The saint then told him that perhaps he should try looking upward, toward the branches of the tree, instead of in the filthy river. The clerk looked up and true enough, the necklace was dangling on the branch of a tree. He had been trying to capture a mere reflection of the real necklace all this time.

Moral: Material happiness is a mere reflection of the true happiness in the spiritual world